hey ho...
back yesterday to my beloved home... beloved bed...i realised i am no longer as home sick as in the beginning...in fact i kinda hope there's no walk-out... wah... friggin sian and tiring to do so sia..walk in the blardy cock walk-out attire...white-shirt, police skirt... cock shoes... hmph...wil change to my own clothes after walk-out once i reach the first public toilet the next time round... haha... my uniform darn funny man... now that i think back...when i wore full-u for classes, i feel like a nurse, my hands always in my blouse pocket... my peak cap looks like mushroom on my very round head... thus, my senior, Shan, called mi mushroom head... hm... quite true...sad... how come i dun look smart in the uniform de....whereas for JJ, she feels that she looks like paramedic... hahha... tats sad~! wear police uniform to look like pararmedic... wahaha...sisi and shann and yvonne looks quite good in the uniform, except for choo choo... woah... she's the one looking the most professional, machiam SPF spokesperson sia... haha...kept running and running for this week ... add together i ran more than 15 km this week.... excluding those distance we had to jog while we r in PT kit... not exactly shagged... i think the more i ran the more energetic i became... juz my shoulders doesn't feel like mine anymore... muahaha... but shiok.... my skirt and pants are becoming looser... so darn happy...staying together is a very unique experience, especially if u dun even noe each other until the day u met and *ta da*...u r bunkmates...i tink its gonna be easy if all just be more considerate and thinking...but some people just cant keep the tantrums and AP to themselves... wad i can say is only.... ' hey, u r not already at home, i'm not ur mother to take care of u like she does, nor am i a vacumm cleaner to take wadever shit u gave me..." but... wad to do... i'll write it here only, not saying it to her personally... all for the thoughts that we r staying together for 6 months... because i'm thinking for u... i noe u'll be sad... wadeveri said, u'll probably take it 10 times worse... because u r too sensitive... i noe u wun be reading my blogs definitely, that's y i said it here... muahaha... and proceeding back on sunday to my hypocritical mask...lotsa things have changed... i've changed... u've changed...relations changed, friendship changed, nuthin can remain in the same way for as long as ever... but there's nuthin we can do to stop the change... but to accept it... i'll always believe god had laid a road for u... but its up to u to choose to walk it or to kip turning in rounds and circles... worst still, u back tracked....In conclusion.... yap... there's no conclusion again... i'll always find myself as confused as ever after thinking... next time i shall not be such a thinker...
ultimate suay week....
well, back at home... happily... this is my ultimate suay week.... and i told my bunkmate i'll tio beh pio next week... muz zhuan3 yun4.... hahaha... gotta console myself and pamper myself with a good rest man...first suay thing, i fell down wearing the blardy skirt with the high-heeled court(cock?) shoes... nearly rolled down the stairs... but i was saved... i stil hurt both of my knees and big patches of blue-black blotch on my leg now... second suay thing... i went for Police Defence Tactics class and as i was removing my baton holster from my belt, my belt buckle came apart... gotta go QM to exchange new belt buckle... luckily, it's been resolved. the 3rd and most suay happening...as i finished my changing out of swimming attire and wanted to proceed to fall in... i fell down tripping over the ledge... i landed on my left ribs and i gather it shall take around a week time to fully recover from the pain... argh...thus, yesterday's walk-out day, i returned with a big and small blisters...big's as big as your thumb nail alrite..?end of my updates... thank u for ur attention...next week i shall strike lottery..... :p
life's a route full of diverts...
hm... juz back from PA after a few days of training as a Police Officer...it's realy not as tough as i imagined... although my body is aching all over trying to protest for being subjected to such torture after not being maintained for so long.... i think the 'slack' training were because of the bad weather... kips raining whenever we are supposed to have our PT... argh...next Friday IPPT...shit man... so gonna fail it all....looking forward most to my Unarmed Tactics Training next week... waohoo... nice FI i have... although we gals from the girls squad love to imitate her... power~! super fit... can run faster than guys... oh my goodness... look up to her man....
mindless....
am i a optimistic pessimist or a pessimistic optimist...?dun bother about me... i'm just blabbering about something that i dun understand about myself....i think i'm going back to my shell that i used to carry....i miss my closed, introverted, eccentric self...back to being a hermit crab...
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update?muahaha...nuthin much to write thou...went to mt ophir... or gunung ledang...it was friggin tired for mi...i told sisi on the bus... this 2 days trekking...the amount of exercise is like more than a total of wad i've had for the past 2 months...argh... really felt like giving up at some point of time...therefore, i felt damned demoralised...my physical strength really slacked far too much for myself to accept...training... i need some real training...i couldn't nearly believed it when i had the thought of giving up even before i reached the base camp...its like so 'not-me'...thus, my morale was really low... still thinking of Gunung Tahan... Kota Kinabalu....how to do it like that?suddenly, i missed the Kili Trainings at Bukit Timah hill...the Jungle fall Trek... haiz... dear all who went with me, should u feel that my attitude or face was too black to be me... please don't be misunderstood...i was just pissed with myself... hai... full of guilt and so crossed with myself...i now realised that all my previous trainings has all gone down to drain...i hate to feel so small... i always knew i'm not fitter than the rest...but i didn't realised i was the most unfit... until then...argh...
