Friday, September 15, 2006

Life....

life... what is it..?
i noe not...
used to tink about it alot...
searching for that meaning in life...
those attempt were futile...
found myself more lost and nearly gave up hope....
giving up hope of finding out who i really am...
giving up hope of knowing where i exactly belong...

den i decided...
stop tinking...
be a nua person...
if i'm meant to be lidat...
i will be...
*as the song goes... 'Whatever will be, will be...' ( if i din remembered wrongly...)

though secretly hoping that the meaning will find its way to me...

i dun find meanings in work...
realising that its juz work...
separating them clearly makes me less disappointed in myself...
for making the wrong choices in life...
Meaning+Work= fuifilment...
too bad...
tink i'm just not destined to realised the fulfilment and satisfaction within...

i'm a fake...
different person at work, at play, at TAS, at home...
these split personalities really tires one out easily...
like wad my buddy at Gul Team D, Yana says...
i'm so different its the post work syndrome...
den i supposed there's so many types in my life...
post-left-home, post-TAS, post-blogging....

but i tink the most comfortable place i'll be at are the TAS Clubhouse...
and with my darlin...

has been trying to be there for my great fren... though i know not how to...
she's going thru some rough rough patches...
hard... but stil... alot of things we can only leave it to god's hand...
the feeling of waiting for somethin to happen.. to change...
is really suffocating...
feels really like crying for her...
sharing her pain is probably the least i could do for her...
hm...
she's not exactly a person of many words...
but strong is one word i'd use to describe her...
but seeing her lidat yesterday...
like she's suddenly aged... suddenly weakened...
and i could only stand by and watch...
she left halfway...
guess she's not in the mood for KTV either....

Really.. Fren.. i wish u LUCK...

cheers to the adversities in life...
挫折会让人变得坚强 也会让人一蹶不振
若欲二中选一 真希望是前者