Monday, January 30, 2006

hm... going back today....

hm.... happy lunar new yr to all...
argh... since waking up this morning...
havent been feeling good...
i dunno if this is symptoms of falling sick...
or juz becoz i really dread going back...
today is walk-in day.... shit~!
this new yr is more of a reunion...
to meet up all my fren whom i've not seen for quite a while...
met up with my TAS mates....
had a illegal gambling session at meritius mandarin in honor of denise's bday....
haha....
was damned fun and laughed alot....
before tat... met wendy and weilin for bai-nian session at wendy's place....
hahaha... watched s.h.e mtv and production....
first day of new yr... after bai-nian...
met han up for Memoirs of a Geisha at tampines mall....
hm... poor thing... fell sick...
ended up shivering and having goosebumps thru-out the bus ride home...
after sending han home... went to selegie 5-10 for ktv with jj, fio, ash and gf...
supposedly carmen's to come too... after tat... went for supper(breakfast??) at 3am....
went home at 4am... thanks ash for da ride... was really fast sia...
15mins from selegie....
tats all for new yr....
walk- in liao.... sucks...
argh.... kill mi man...
slash my throat... come....

Monday, January 23, 2006

1st off.....

well... its oreadi 9.93pm in the nite....
i juz woke up not long ago from much deprived sleep....
what a waste for an off-day... ain't it?
managed to finish my Angels and Demons...
after 2 weeks... hm...
well, i can only read it in and outta work...
on those bus journeys when i'm alone...
but apparently i havent been very much alone....
i still think i'm a hermit... a loner....
i do not embrace interaction...
i prefer to be alone more often than not....
solitude... its more positive than negative in my sense....
but what's now?
when was the last time i'm allowed to sit alone at just any cafe and stone my day away...?
i could not even finish my book even though i find it so darn interesting....

我不能发呆吗?

not tat my frens requires my attention anyways....
juz that its probably a natural reflex of mine
to refuse silence when being with my friends....
now.... i really know not who am i?
where to find myself....
gonna go learn taichi and meditate soon... hahaha
incredible..? ridiculous?
hm.... juz like me....

anyways.... its just a rant outta boredom and confusion of the author....
do not be affected too much...
but in any case u were affected.... *JTB*

cheersZ.... ciaoz......

*p.s. JTB==> Just too bad....

Thursday, January 19, 2006

1st tour....

hm..
rich as singaporeans might seems to be....
i guess problems exist in every niche, every form....
well... i always thought i'm poor.... as if no money lar...
but then again...
looking at some of the houses that i managed to drop by... listening to their woes in life...
one can hardly not feel that actually heavens had been exceptionally kind
and benevolent to bless them with a proper house with a proper job....
paying a proper pay...
and have no one to beat u up at home...
its almost the most joyous festive occasion in the lunar calendar and all this people did to usher in the new lunar yr...
is to have policemen and civil defence personel stroding into their house and
teaching them what to do....
i dunno... sad ain't it...?
their house looks nothing like what u imagine new year celebration to be...
thrown furniture... wet floors... quarrelling adults...
hm... all i can say is everybody have their fair share of troubles and
why do we bothering grumbling about this and that worldly desires that we do not have?

快乐和幸福可以是简单明瞭, 清晰可见的……
满足也可以是复杂,毫无头绪,永无止尽的寻觅……

飘散在风里……

Friday, January 13, 2006

attachment lo..

i'm so glad.... i'm so glad..... i'm so glad.... i'm so glad..... i'm so glad.....
attachment lor...
i dunno y... i dun find it in the least intimidating of starting to be full-fledged...
i'm not really thinking much about shouldering the responsibilities....
in fact, looking forwards to it....
attachment starting monday.... i'm in JE... with JJ...
hehe... JJ, we're stuck together again sia...


hm.... wad happened during training hours...?
hm.... a slight note on wad happened...
well, i can neither imagine or expect someone my age to behave in such a way...
its really extreme man...
self-indulgence in ur own emotions....
thinking that the moment u like the person, he/she should be standing there all the moment to wait for u... at ur beck and call...
erm.... well, i'm not really into the fact that u've got a bad character built-up...
juz that ur behavior is now affecting me.... hurting my fren in the process...
bo liao bugger....

P.s. i'm not in any sense any party of the above-mentioned incident... juz a kaypoh onlooker... if u r not aware... :p

last nite... booked out... went down to queensway to meet han....
we took cab to bugis...
in the end... went to Phin's steakhouse....
had some fish fish thingy and half-a-dozen oysters....
woah... the oyster was good man...
after that... go for coffee at the C.A.N cafe right beside...
hehe.... been a while since i last went there... stil so cofy and nice feeling inside...
but according to han... u'll go home smelling like CRAP...
because its indoor smoking area....
haha... the whiskey dry sucks... whiskey and plain water... felt cheated..
at least han's gin tonic.... can make it....
tink i shall stick to my ice mocha float next time round...
it hurts to be too adventurous and explorative...
sent han home.... met up with JJ at admiralty....
stil with my walk-out barang barang....
gotten my gift from Fio's and Kitman's bangkok trip.... so touched....
thAnkS u Very the Much.....~!

tats so much for my day...
ciaoz...

Monday, January 09, 2006

haji public holiday.....

hm.... the part of a year that i absolutely adore is the start and the end....
y so, u may ask...
well, all because of the overwhelming amount of public holidays...
woah....
i faintly remembered dreading public holiday because i find it simply too troublesome to keep walking in and out of Tracom...
but as time goes by...
the feeling of me losing my freedom started to set in
and i hate being confined in a place
with the lack of any sort of entertainment....
and i friggin hate having to stay-in nowadays..
cant wait for my POC....
to wear no.1 uniform...
to be a full-fledged police officer...
not tat i'm an aspiring crime fighter though...
but because i wan my own free time...
to do my things... to see ppl whom i wanna see....
well, last nite... after book out...
i went to chinatown with JJ and Jillian... after almost 2 hrs of bus rides...
went to eat claypot rice....
delivered tangyuan to Fio's house with the timid JJ...
only to realise Fio is unwell... no appetite for the tangyuan...
me and jillian den ate up the tangyuan.... stupid jj...
took the almond soup only to realise she dun like...
went home...
today slacked most part of it at home...
only left home a short while... to meet jj for kopi session...
tonite booking in....
Sianz of the Day....

Saturday, January 07, 2006

hmmm....

today's been tiring... not exactly activity-packed...
but i have no idea why am i so easily pushed to my limits nowadays....
perhaps its because i slacked far too much... asking to slp lesser ish like a torture to mi...
even at this friggin moment... i'm yawning and rubbing my blood-shot eyes while typing this entry...
hm... if not for Dora...( u Mangkok!) asked mi to talk to u... i wouldn't even have this particular entry in this pathetically-neglected blog of mine....
but well, its also outta guilty conscience.... paiseh eh...*salute and say -SORRY- BAH POK*
besides having a date with my friend already, i really forgotten about the roadshow thingy...
and thus din showed my cute face at Taka today...
hm... i know u all missed mi.... muahhaha... ( particularly u.... rite?? Bah Pok...)

this morning... woke from my beloved bed... at 8am...
relunctant to leave my very-much-missed-nice-cosy bed...
went to CPF board at Civic Plaza with JJ to settle her Loan thingy...
met up with Eric and Derrick to get our copies of the policies that we've bought...
Shereen arrived.... wanted to play pool at Causeway Point...
only to realise the pool centre and LAN gaming Centre shifted to Jurong... DAmn~!
went to AMK for KTV session... k-Happy... $20 for 5 full hours of singing... Woah~!
after KTV.... went for movie at AMK Jubilee...
2nd time watching at this theatre...
(1st time was with Joey... watching some stupid lame new yr show...)
watched A Chinese Tall Story.... *or vice versa*
super lame...
but cant help but felt that Nicholas Tse is quite funny and comical in a very cute way...
especially the way he talks...
muahaha...

went home....
well, its been a long time sice i last wrote such a long entry....
or probably i never did...
now?
i'm gonna launch myself, both physically and mentality, into the universe of nothingness...
i'm drifting....
drifting......
and.... PoooF~!
i'm gone..............................................

是否我整个人生只不过是场春秋大梦?而梦境里才能唯一的真实世界?